What defines me?

Cancer , A Dozen Kids , Life, Struggle

Oh Gosh, Mother’s Day is usually one of those days when I’m screaming on the inside. Mostly it has been filled of hiccups and stress if I’m just being honest. A few were okay but none stand out as the one to remember until this year. This year I didn’t plan! Let’s be real I …

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I have felt that awful double standard heavier than normal this week. The double standard where men think it’s a role of a Mother to do and his to do when he feels like it. I’m so sick of hearing them tell me they have struggles. Like I am not your therapist! Don’t come to …

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Often I sit and sulk in the things I want to change but can’t. One of those being the men I chose to make children with. Seeing a post by one of the kids about the pain and regression they have over their fathers is painful. I don’t understand how they can see and not …

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So I’ve already told you that I have some mental health struggles. Honestly, I’ve really got good reigns on it lately and seem to truly improve daily in my opinion. Often I find myself asking Marc as well. Do you think my meds are working well? Am I normal? As if anyone really is. However …

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My life has just been blessed. I have no complaints of any kind. Last week Marc added to our routine. He decided that in the morning he needed to add in a cuddle with me before leaving for the day for work. Talk about my kind of man! Seriously, ladies he is perfection! So we …

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Honestly, I love that it’s just me the kids and Marc. The peace I have in that is unlike any other. For so long I had to fit in and had to have friends. Even though I knew that they didn’t know or even like me for who I was. Now I love the solitude …

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I have so much to share from my Alabama vacation. I mean seriously it was just so much fun. There were definitely some very tough moments. Emotionally it was my biggest test since beginning the journey to better mental health. Faced with a huge trigger…. But for now lets talk FOOD! Cooking is my love. …

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ME and My MINI

Sometimes it’s hard to see the growth that I have personally achieved. There tend to be these blinders on my eyes and I can’t see what I over come and achieve. Facebook gives a space to shout out my accomplishments and others holler back their pride in me. Seeing that for myself is still so …

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Today in the mail came the order form for my Malachi’s cap and gown. I literally screamed for joy so loud I am certain the neighbors must have heard it. My son is going to finish his high school education after all the hard work and obstacles it’s finally over. It was uncertain if this …

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I honestly have wanted and well did write so many times since the last post. But only in my head while driving the back country roads to and from therapy. Or in the quite moments I am in the kitchen baking or laundry room folding. It seems it’s so easy to blog when my fingers …

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