What defines me?

Cancer , A Dozen Kids , Life, Struggle

Today in the mail came the order form for my Malachi’s cap and gown. I literally screamed for joy so loud I am certain the neighbors must have heard it. My son is going to finish his high school education after all the hard work and obstacles it’s finally over. It was uncertain if this …

Continue reading

I honestly have wanted and well did write so many times since the last post. But only in my head while driving the back country roads to and from therapy. Or in the quite moments I am in the kitchen baking or laundry room folding. It seems it’s so easy to blog when my fingers …

Continue reading

I was so nervous anticipating the graduation I forgot to enjoy it when the day arrived. The flood gates of emotions poured in as family flooded my yard. Hailey’s father the only one not willing to stay and support her. He made a b line for the door just as fast as he arrived. Nothing …

Continue reading

It’s been such a long month! Like seriously so long. Emotionally it’s felt as though I was on the biggest and boldest rollercoaster known to man. Hailey graduated. She did it. Her being her mother’s child and all. She wants so badly to show her family her accomplishments and feel their pride. Longing to be …

Continue reading

Life just never seems to settle and stay the same for more than a brief moment. Tonight my mind has been racing wither to keep home my children or send them back to school. It’s such a hard conflicting choice. Some of my kids simply struggle with the online learning. They will absolutely be hindered …

Continue reading

My Fozzy Subaru

Recently I stopped all contact with my blood family. Well the majority of them anyway. That prompted all the nasty comments from them about how I am trying to replace them. Or how much they were there for me. For a year now those comments have been haunting me. I wanted to shout are you …

Continue reading

It’s been awhile again I know. It’s hard to find the time to sit now and write. I completed my last day of treatment last Monday. I got to ring the bell that I was so excited to ring. It wasn’t the same as I had seen from others. I rang it alone. I hadn’t …

Continue reading

My entire life my perception of family was negative. Flopping around as a child and even more so as a teen I had no stability. It was easy for me to make a mistake and the price I paid for them always seemed to be more love lost. Being a cute baby I am sure …

Continue reading

[amazon_link asins=’B000YR7DOK,B06XRQFJR8,B01MR1QU9K,B01N27TCR0,B071LJYQSJ,B001N8FH1A,B009P13RW8,B075R18PHV,1935414291′ template=’ProductCarousel’ store=’buchtelassoci-20′ marketplace=’US’ link_id=’408cc3a4-b2e2-11e8-ad9e-7326ee0b8cc6′]Marc had a passing in his family this week. The funeral to be held on a day we thought we had a school activity. Marc had intended to miss the funeral so that he could be the wonderful father he strives to be. Being at the kids back to school …

Continue reading