What defines me?

Cancer , A Dozen Kids , Life, Struggle

Life just never seems to settle and stay the same for more than a brief moment. Tonight my mind has been racing wither to keep home my children or send them back to school. It’s such a hard conflicting choice. Some of my kids simply struggle with the online learning. They will absolutely be hindered …

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My Fozzy Subaru

Recently I stopped all contact with my blood family. Well the majority of them anyway. That prompted all the nasty comments from them about how I am trying to replace them. Or how much they were there for me. For a year now those comments have been haunting me. I wanted to shout are you …

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It’s been awhile again I know. It’s hard to find the time to sit now and write. I completed my last day of treatment last Monday. I got to ring the bell that I was so excited to ring. It wasn’t the same as I had seen from others. I rang it alone. I hadn’t …

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My entire life my perception of family was negative. Flopping around as a child and even more so as a teen I had no stability. It was easy for me to make a mistake and the price I paid for them always seemed to be more love lost. Being a cute baby I am sure …

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My entire life I have longed for family. I know clearly everyone is born with one right? I just never seemed to fit mine. Christmas events I wasn’t invited to. Excluded because I had “so many kids”. Spending time with family always felt like a chore. A task done because it was an obligation not …

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I was beyond excited to realize that Marc would have the 4th of July off from work. YAY! I mean seriously I adore every moment of that man’s time! He warms me from within. The downfall is we just had a big expensive weekend. Both our checks will be delayed a day because of the …

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I have spent so much time looking for my path. Thinking I needed a career to be fulfilled. Cooked in many kitchen’s. I worked in a office typing my life away. I worked at a daycare nursing my love for children. I went back to school thinking there might be where I found my purpose. …

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Okay, sorry about the delay on part 3 but honestly life is sooooo busy! Recap in case you missed or have forgotten. For Hailey and Malachi’s bday’s we first went to the amazing pet store. Then off to zap zone for a major adventure! After both of those are tummies are rumbling. Our energy spent …

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After our pet store adventure the kids wanted to laser tag. They had asked to go back to the small little spot we had gone to in our run down local mall again. That clearly wasn’t what I had planned for them. I had searched and searched for the coolest laser tag adventure I could …

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