What defines me?

Cancer , A Dozen Kids , Life, Struggle

Honestly, I love that it’s just me the kids and Marc. The peace I have in that is unlike any other. For so long I had to fit in and had to have friends. Even though I knew that they didn’t know or even like me for who I was. Now I love the solitude …

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Ever just wish you had the power to control the thoughts that race about in your brain? That’s my feeling this am. Badly longing for vacation to begin but allowing worry into my racing brain for all the what ifs. This trip could sincerely trigger me. I’ve had two weeks without therapy. Something I haven’t …

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It’s almost the four year mark. Four years since the beginning of what lead to be a entire new life for me. Of course I excitedly planned a fancy junior suit at a local hotel. Thinking that we didn’t really have the finances for a big trip this year but a small get away would …

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Each social setting seems to show me more how much my social anxiety is taking control. Longing for family for so long and now that I have some… I get tongued tied and can’t even speak when in their presence. Over the weekend I went to a social event. One that should have been my …

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You ever just know that you were meant to be where you are right now? I feel that so often with Marc. Like we just fit to the puzzle for each other. Raising each other up in ways you honestly can’t imagine. With my surgery ahead and Marc having has his surgery’s last year it …

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So many negative post in a row. Needs a change up. I’ve been seriously making so much growth within myself it’s unreal. Striving to be the best me and perfect that image I will leave behind of myself. Taking the time to decide what I wanted in life. As cheesy as it may sound I …

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Yesterday I had some errands that needed to be done. Picking up medication for kids. Running to donate non perishables for our tickets to the haunted house. Just a bunch of small little task I needed to accomplish. Deciding it wouldn’t take me long I thought I’d leave the boys to their man stuff. Separating …

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On day two of Marc’s work trip we both walking back from our hot tub adventure spoke of never being in love before meeting. Not true love anyways. See we had never had the kind of feelings we feel so deep for each other. We may have thought in the moment with others that it …

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We had known for some time now that Marc had a new work training he needed to complete for work. We had in fact postponed it once because there was so much going on we just couldn’t fit it in. Scheduling it for a time I was able to come with! His work let him …

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I can’t believe I am 34 in fact prior to my Birthday Celebrations I had my own age wrong. My daughter asked google to calculate my birthday as I was certain to be an entire year younger than I am. Can you imagine 34 and already forgetting my age!? It happened! Marc had asked me …

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