What defines me?

Cancer , A Dozen Kids , Life, Struggle

I have felt that awful double standard heavier than normal this week. The double standard where men think it’s a role of a Mother to do and his to do when he feels like it. I’m so sick of hearing them tell me they have struggles. Like I am not your therapist! Don’t come to …

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What or who in your life fills your bucket? Your emotional bucket that makes you feel complete and happy. For me it’s Marc taking pride in me. Even him muttering the word proud in reference to me just lights me up from within. Maybe it’s some childhood repressed emotional baggage that gives me this need …

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My life has just been blessed. I have no complaints of any kind. Last week Marc added to our routine. He decided that in the morning he needed to add in a cuddle with me before leaving for the day for work. Talk about my kind of man! Seriously, ladies he is perfection! So we …

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Honestly, I love that it’s just me the kids and Marc. The peace I have in that is unlike any other. For so long I had to fit in and had to have friends. Even though I knew that they didn’t know or even like me for who I was. Now I love the solitude …

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I honestly have wanted and well did write so many times since the last post. But only in my head while driving the back country roads to and from therapy. Or in the quite moments I am in the kitchen baking or laundry room folding. It seems it’s so easy to blog when my fingers …

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My Fozzy Subaru

If you haven’t already read of my Subaru Journey you really should. If you have you know my Subaru is the only car I have ever felt comfortable driving. In fact I am not sure that I have ever even gone the speed limit in any other car. My fears kept me driving like a …

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On day two of Marc’s work trip we both walking back from our hot tub adventure spoke of never being in love before meeting. Not true love anyways. See we had never had the kind of feelings we feel so deep for each other. We may have thought in the moment with others that it …

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October 15, 2017 I slept in his arms for the very first time. Afraid to be naked hiding my flaws. A ball of self doubt is exactly what I was back then. When he fell asleep that first night I remember pressing myself against his back and en hailing his scent. The next day I …

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Friday night I went to night sad. I felt like I would never have anyone to freely share life’s journey with. My significant other as wonderful as he is. Isn’t perfect and he hurt my heart and shut me down. I had cried myself to sleep that night but really said nothing to him for …

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