Some Mornings Are Rough

Some Mornings Are Rough

I try desperately to avoid my illness. I love pretending it doesn't exist. Putting it in the furthermost corner of my mind like it is in a time out. Every morning is the worst. I wake up feeling cramps and wanting to hurl. The worst thing about all the puking is my teeth and mouth [...]

Natural to lie……

I just tried to lie to the one I love the most. I do it all the time. It's natural and has been for some time. I lie to everyone who ask how are you feeling... I respond with I'm fine all the time. Even right now the laptop on my lap myself sitting on [...]

High Emotions…..

 //pagead2.googlesyndication.com/pagead/js/adsbygoogle.js (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({ google_ad_client: "ca-pub-1747195353515083", enable_page_level_ads: true }); I woke up around 6 from the cramps in my stomach. They were something fierce. I had dinner last night and Marc's parent's bought my food. I sat to put the first bite to my mouth of the mouthwatering food and felt queasy instantly. [...]

Sadness has crept back in with a vengeance.

It's been several days sitting here at this low. It's consuming me now. I need to talk I need to pour my heart out in hopes that I'm still lovable after. I have struggled this week at everything life has felt nothing short of overwhelming. The flood, the move, all of the changes has been [...]

I won’t be hiding the pain today….

If you read yesterday's post you would know my pain level was high most of the day. I only held down a biscuit and a half of a protein shake. I don't think I even consumed an entire pop to be honest. I didn't intake much at all. Last night I tried my best not [...]

Results, Fear,How do I find a positive with so much negative ?????

I went to my apt. today so many results it was so intimidating. Tumour 7x9cm on cervix & down into vagina, not in bowel but "against" bladder (no probs with either motion lol). Spread to pelviv nodes & x1 para-aortic node. There's a wee 3mm "node" on a lung so I'm to have a CT [...]