My youngest son he has super struggles. He has pretty much no control of his emotions nor does he have an understanding of them. He can be hurt and sad but laughing uncontrollable. He has a very high pain tolerance. Not knowing when he has a ear infection or a cut until it’s pointed out by someone else. I had a really unhappy and unhealthy relationship for his entire life. He never really bonded with anyone but me and his siblings. He never trusted anyone but us. He had a few men try desperately to play the father role but to no avail. Paytyn tried public school and quickly it wasn’t the fit for him. I have home schooled since giving him even less outside interaction. Until meeting Marc and his family he hadn’t ever interacted well with others. He never much showed love for anyone outside of our house. Hugs were tough for his siblings to obtain in fact and just a special treat that seemed to be saved for Mom. Now I see him forming bonds and filling buckets like crazy with Marc and his entire family. I think he feels accepted with them. I feel far less alone in raising him. I don’t feel like all eyes are on me and I am this terrible mom when I go out and he has a melt down because I am not alone. I can see his progress as my confidence grows in taking him out and to Marc’s house to hang out. Marc’s house really teaches him to work on his struggles as well. He isn’t able to be as loud he needs to reign it in if he doesn’t want to scare the birds. He has to watch the jumping more as he has a fish tank in the living room. He has really gained a love for animals since meeting Marc. When Marc gave me my rat I hadn’t really processed what positive reaction Paytyn would have. With a no pet policy( a fee if we wanted to add to lease) a rat was something that wouldn’t require a fee or space. It worked out absolutely perfectly! The rat is spoiled rotten and Paytyn has learned to be gentle and kind. I feel we have grown leaps in the last 8 months. I have been exploring a curriculum for next year that would make me far more hands on and see what we can achieve together. Autism is a big hard world for my son. I am eager to help him tackle his dreams. I am more confident knowing I have support. I have seen so much growth in us both this past year our journey will be so bright.