Emotionally drained

I can’t explain how tired I am.  It’s not even just a physical tired at this point I am emotionally tapped out. I have nothing left to give out to anyone. I really need a moment for myself. Just a minute to catch my breath and comes to grasp with my new life. It has been turned upside down repeatedly the last few months. Today I had to just take the kids to their dad’s ask him to step up for me today. Just this one day for me to shut off my phone and take a bit of a mommy breather. We had another night in the hotel last night. It was the roughest. I didn’t sleep much at all even though my eyes could barely stay open they refused to stay shut either. It was as though my brain was refusing to shut down. I felt very disconnected from Marc yesterday. I didn’t get to lay my eyes on him even for a moment. My phone went dead for quite some time once it charged and I contacted him I could tell my his text he wasn’t thrilled with me. HE didn’t even talk before bed. I sat and cried in the shower at the hotel hiding from the kids for hours. Letting him down or upsetting him my my stomach turn. It wasn’t intentional. This morning I watched my phone for his good morning text. From 530 to 7 I just waited…. Never came. I was devastated. I sent a text because at this point I have concerns is he really that upset? He never skips a good morning message. So I just ask lol. He screen shots the good morning he had sent I just hadn’t gotten. STUPID phone playing with my heart. I have very little trust in anyone right now. I feel like the world may potentially all be against me because I am of course that important that the entire world would conspire together just to defeat little ole me…… Dinner at the hotel was horrible. I spent the entire evening panicking on all the things I kept losing and misplacing. I lost 110 dollars I lost room keys left and right. I left my laptop at he previous hotel. By the trash no less so it was almost toast. My anxiety never settled. I have felt so completely hopeless through this entire Flood disaster. I still remain with those feelings. All I want is to go home.

Flood Recovery

To help my family recoup cost from hotels lost food and water damage.

$1.00

 

Donation For Flood Burden

My family was apart of the flood in berrien springs mi. We haven’t been home since last weds. The financial burden is great any help is appreciated

$10.00

Flood Recovery

To help my family recoup cost from hotels lost food and water damage.

$1.00

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