The sunset is so pretty tonight. I watched it go down alone tonight. After a day full of stress and everything falling apart something so simple as a sunset presents closure. The day could have been worse I could have no woke up not seen my kids bright smiling faces. Not got to give them kisses or hear them call mom mom mom a million times. I sat thinking of all the the mistakes I made today and on my path. I wish I could make changes but I am not able to build a time machine so I guess all I can do is move forward. So I pull up my big girl panties and dry my tears because tomorrow is a new day. I am going to start it with a clean slate.
I already ache missing my kids. Regretting all the events that played out today. Hoping they understand I love them unconditionally and just want the best for them. Nothing but good intentions in my heart.