True Love

On day two of Marc’s work trip we both walking back from our hot tub adventure spoke of never being in love before meeting. Not true love anyways. See we had never had the kind of feelings we feel so deep for each other. We may have thought in the moment with others that it was love. Then we meet. Consumed with love and adoration for each other it’s clear to see what there was before was the furthermost thing from love.

Neither Marc or I could ever intentionally hurt the others feelings we are in constant awareness of the others emotional needs. Like on this trip right now. I have been looking in the mirrors and realizing I am not the weight I want to be. I was on a constant loosing streak until Marc. He promotes eating and medication that aides with my ability to eat. So I am not losing. I’m not entirely sure I am gaining either but the lack of losing is making me pay attention. He noticed me looking at myself with disgust and has been giving extra compliments.

I want to give this man every bit of my time. I never need a break or time away from him. It never even crosses my mind. There is so much love between us that I wonder how I was able to confuse anything before this as love. Is it because we are lonely and longing for someone to share life with? The need to be loved is so great that it clouds the mind and gives us blinders?




I allowed many to treat me poorly as they claimed they loved me. I thought love was like a pass for that mistreatment. That isn’t even logical. It is however what the thought process was in my head. Those words that a man would speak I would believe and hold them to be true even when each action proved otherwise. Marc too, he has told me of his heartache’s and the way he allowed girls to play with him like a toy because he thought he loved them. After feeling what we share he knows that to not be love now too.

It leaves me to wonder how many miss out on the real thing? Thinking what they have is love. Are our brains wired to need that love so badly to accept something less than as the true love we long for? I can’t imagine a life without Marc now. He is my best friend and we share everything together. Nothing in the world I couldn’t openly just say to him. He instilled in me that he will be here forever no matter what. I believe in him and our love. The years I wasted on false love are gone but my future is bright.

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Work Training Can Be Fun!

We had known for some time now that Marc had a new work training he needed to complete for work. We had in fact postponed it once because there was so much going on we just couldn’t fit it in. Scheduling it for a time I was able to come with!

His work let him pick from a list of approved hotels for us to stay at. They would pay for two nights as he had two days of work training to complete. It was just outside of Chicago the class he needed to take.

The choice he made was for Country Inn and Suites a nice hotel located just off the highway. Before we even arrived I had done and in depth check on the hotel. I found out there was a hot tub and pool and made sure I had a bathing suite along in my suitcase. Even though I did tell Marc all of the hotel and the hot tub he still forgot to bring his. We will make a bathing suit stop today because he is definitely going to enjoy that hot tub with me.

I scooped out what was in the area too as I thought I may want to do some exploring while Marc was in his class. There were quite a few local things I was very interested in. Unfortunately upon arrival I realized that being just off the highway meant very busy roads and traffic. Chances are I will not feel comfortable walking anywhere that I found.

Walking into the hotel I was impressed. The big open entry way with this magnificent stair case. The staff greeted us as soon as we walked through the doorway. The check in seemed effortless and went very quickly. We were gifted two free drink coupons for the restaurant next door.

I checked on the pool while walking to our room. It was incredibly large and the hot tub was as well. There were very few people in the pool being a weekday. I thought that would be perfect for a evening swim. It opened at 7 am and didn’t close till 11pm so I thought the hours were great too. It would leave plenty of time in the evening for a hot tub adventure. Marc’s class would get done right before dinner time.

Our door to our hotel was kind of a pain. We have had to go get our keys redone twice so far and still takes many attempts to get into the room. Our room is equip with a king size bed, a fridge and microwave, coffee, a couch and a desk. The television is only a 32 inch and I of course didn’t bring my glasses so I had a hard time viewing that. In fact I am laying on the bed head at the footer to be closer to the television in an attempt to see it better. It does have Comcast including LIFE TIME MOVIE NETWORK! ! Does it even get any better than that? There is HBO too of course.

After getting all unloaded into our room I was absolutely starving. Do you remember I had said we got FREE drink coupons for the restaurant next door? When Marc turned to me for where I would like to go to dinner. I took to my phone to see if the menu was affordable where we had FREE drinks too. Free clearly being the way to my heart.

 Jimmy’s Char House In Elgin was the restaurant at hand. After checking the menu both for affordability and for chicken because it’s my main food group I was on board to give it a try. After all I was starving and it was just a brisk walk through the parking lot.

Walking over to the restaurant holding hands and gawking at each other was blissful. I truly am so madly in love. Inside the restaurant was fascinating. We sat together in a booth continuing to hold hands while we tried to decide what the feel was to us. Old England is what we decided upon. It left us feeling like we were in Old England or how we would imagine that to be anyway. The chandeliers and the art work that hung looked antique. Both of us thought it was far to dark. It even was a struggle to read our menus.

The first thing I noticed was the impeccable customer service by the entire staff! There was a waitress in the left corner that was specifically focused on drinks. However she did bring me a box at the end of my meal as well. Another gentlemen to the right was watching to clear plates. Instantly taking all plates that were finished and pushed to the edges of the tables. Our server was at a table when we were seated so another took our drink order. The wait for service was just a few moments and our drinks were replenished just before finishing without a need to ask for a refill. We used our free coupons for just a diet coke. Even though we were welcome to a glass of whine or a beer. Neither of us choose to do so.

I had already planned what I wanted in my head while looking at the menu from the hotel bed. I was getting the Chicken Parm. Sandwich on a Pretzel Bun. My mouth was watering at the description. Sadly I didn’t care of the sauce when it came. It was a bit spicy for my personal liking. However the sandwich was hot and cooked well. The fries were delicious. Marc got a chicken and bacon sandwich. He devoured the entire thing. Safe to assume that means he enjoyed. Marc not being nearly as picky of an eater as I am.

After dinner we headed back to our room for cuddles. Marc did some online training he needed to do sitting at the desk in our room. He used the WiFi access code we were given upon arrival. Same as I am now and it is working perfectly. Not slow at all.

The bed is very comfortable. It was a large King size and plenty of room for the two of us. The blanket incredibly heavy and right up my ally. But the pillows for the love of those pillows! They were so soft and plush it was like sleeping on air. Marc has those contoured fit your neck firm pillows at his place. At mine I have about 20 pillows on my bed to pile up under my head. So sleeping with those fluffy sink into pillows was quite a challenge. Marc stole every bit of the blanket leaving it dangle down his side of the bed while I got frostbite. I woke up and took a picture to show him when he woke because his theory that I am the blanket hog was finally proven to be wrong! Our first night under our belts. Marc is at class and I am happily in bed doing what I love! Blogging for all of you! More of our adventure to come tomorrow. img_1791img_1799img_1792img_1810

Review for Relaxing Massage Oil

It is no secret I have leg pain that can be very intense for me to get through at times. Often Marc gives me leg massages to help ease the pain. Recently we got this relaxing massage oil  hoping it would be a nice treat to my leg rubs.

My desire to rub Marc’s shoulder with the oil being great as well. When the relaxing massage oil arrived the first thing I did was smell it. Next I put it to Marc’s nose to smell. There is no way I could have it all over our bodies if we don’t both enjoy the smell. We tend to be a bit picky with our smelly stuff as well.  Only buying our hand soap at bath and body kind of picky.

Marc’s reaction to the smell was he enjoyed it. Upon asking what came to mind for him it smelled “Fresh”. My reaction was it was a distinct lavender scent. Lavender is such a relaxing scent.

When we used the oil it was pretty freaking fantastic. It didn’t leave behind a oily feel. It rubbed into the skin and left a moisturized feeling. Marc would have rushed to the shower before bed if it was oily or left a residue of any kind behind. I was so pleased to see this was not the case. We went to bed never needing to take the massage oil back off.

The scent in itself is relaxing but there is nothing better then giving my love a massage and getting one in return. It is calming and distressing for us both. Even if we are unable to take the pain away for each other we are able to provide a distraction from it.

We both gave the massage oil a five stars. We will purchase again absolutely! I’d like to check and see what other scents they have to offer. The bottle I got was 8 oz and it takes very little for the massage so it goes a long way.

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The Spy Who Dumped Me

I think movie dates have become a regular habit lately. At the very low prices our local theater offer it’s easily a go to for something to do. Only spending $30 for five of us to enjoy a movie, pop, popcorn, and a treat a piece.

This week we had some time to kill. So off to the movie theater we went. Our movie choice this week was The Spy Who Dumped Me. I was very excited to see a funny movie. Comedies are probably my top genre.

It wasn’t long into the movie that you could hear a roar of laughter. Everyone watching was highly entertained. I love looking down the seats to the kids and watching their laughter. It’s so infectious the laughter of children. Especially your own. It’s those laughs that I close my eyes to remember when I’m in a lot of pain of getting sick. Focusing on such fond memories gets you through the tough times.

So this movie is Rated R. Mostly because of language. I still took my teens and they enjoyed it. My judgement call to take them didn’t change after seeing it. The humor was adult but it didn’t push the line enough to not let them see it. There was no nudity. The violence wasn’t gory.

It was a movie I’d take my grandma to see. In fact there were many grandmas and grandpas in the theater. I love seeing that too. Elderly couples on movie dates. Only do I hope to live long enough to hobble my way into the theater and curl up to Marc and doze off watching some hip new movie.

The Spy Who Dumped Me was just shy of a two hour movie. That is about my max time for sitting in the older theaters with the not so comfy seats. If it had been a longer movie I would have sprung for the better theater for sure.

Birthday Celebrations! The BIG 34!

I can’t believe I am 34 in fact prior to my Birthday Celebrations I had my own age wrong. My daughter asked google to calculate my birthday as I was certain to be an entire year younger than I am. Can you imagine 34 and already forgetting my age!? It happened!

Marc had asked me what I would like to do for my birthday for weeks prior. I researched everything he loved. See I knew what I wanted for my birthday was time with him and that contagious smile he has. So my plan was to find something to light him up and in turn it would do the same to me ten fold! I picked a flying experience and how to make the money for it. As we are saving for a house and our budget it well planned for such. Sadly when I told Marc what I wanted he refused. He would have no part in him flying for my birthday.

Disappointed that he wouldn’t go for a $500 plane ride with me on the ground taking pictures of his handsome smile I was in need of a new idea. Back to the drawing board I went. I had been sick an entire ten days before my birthday. I figured I needed something relaxing and light for myself. So I thought a dinner and movie would be a great evening. No children to tag along just him and I.

Now I needed a movie. The catch is Marc and I aren’t really into the same movies. He of course would sit through anything I asked. In fact in the beginning of our relationship I drug him out to a chick flick he was very much less then thrilled to watch but happily appeased me. My goal was still to see him happy and enjoying the day. So I looked for what would come out that week that he would enjoy most. I even went so far as to research his amazon video account just to see what he may like the most.  It was three I seen his Mission Impossible Collection. That is when I knew that was the movie to choose.

When I told him the movie and dinner I had wanted you could tell he was excited. He raved of the last of the sequel Ghost Protocol being his favorite. I knew I had the right choice instantly. It would bring a smile to him and he would enjoy. For me I could cuddle up to him in those comfortable chairs and stare at the smile. He hates when I stare at him and I can’t help it. So in the movie I could hide the fact that I can’t take my eyes off of him. He is SO SEXY!

The movie theater was spectacular, lounge seats superb. I did just as I had envisioned and cuddled him to pieces. The entire two hour movie I was snuggled and smiling. Being with someone whose happiness brings you inner joy is fantastic! My birthday was absolutely the best day. It had nothing to do with a thing we had planned and everything to do with being together.

Before going to the movie Marc had plans of his own for me. He took me to the Mall a large Mall that was in the area where we would be seeing our movie. We walked in with him saying I could look at anything I would like but he would really like for me to buy a new bra. Complaining of mine for weeks must have promoted this bra shopping experience. I looked at him and said, ” I have never bra shopped anywhere but Walmart I wouldn’t know where to begin?”. Memories of our dress shopping experience together fondly flooded in.

He had a few ideas for where we could look for bras. Jcpenny is where we ended up finding the best selection for myself. Into the fitting room I went snapping pictures to send to him standing just outside. Walking out both of us agreed we liked one in particular the best. It was the most comfortable fit too. They were ridiculously priced in my book as I am a Walmart shopper. These were NOT Walmart prices that was for sure. Marc noticed a sign that they were buy one get one free and begun his speech to why it and I was worth it. He has had to perfect this speech over the last 10 months as frugal as I like to be. I agreed to the purchase if we could find two in my size.

Ten minutes into looking I was discouraged that I wouldn’t find a second in my size at all. I asked a employee stocking the area for assistance to be let down that there were no more. Then I hear, “Babe, babe come here.” Marc had found an entire wall of my size and the bras I was shopping for. Finding my favorite color and fit as well. Isn’t he just simply perfect?

Stopping on the way out to buy me my favorite South Bend Chocolate Factory Pb Caramel Corn that was on sale as well. Leading to him buying me two bags of that as well. Gosh I am so spoiled. Here I had tried to not plan chick flicks and he took me shopping for bras and chocolate. Perfectly matched the two of us are! He gave me the best birthday

a girl could ask for.

Christopher Robin

My children are just wonderful! Today is my birthday and as a early treat yesterday my daughter and her boyfriend took me to the movies. They treated me to the new Christopher Robin movie. Disney’s new spin off from the classic Winnie The Pooh tale.

Ecstatic was I to be going to the movie with my mvp’s in life.  They even treated me to the nice theater. We had our over-sized reclining chairs and our food delivered to our seats. The theater was not very full maybe ten people at most. We had picked perfect seats perfectly positioned in the center of the screen.

The previews had all three of us ohhing and awwing. Disney movies are just so incredible these days. Nothing like the vhs I played as a child. Watching all the remakes be done is really a neat experience.


Christopher Robin is the story of him no longer as a child but all grown up. It’s the classic tale of forgetting your child hood. Letting it fade as adult life creeps in. So easy for us adults to get wrapped on careers and money and lose sight of the things we held dear as a child.

Christopher Robin also a father in the movie who lost his way to connect to his daughter. I am sure parents all over the world can easily relate to the movie. I thoroughly enjoyed seeing his role as a father.

Piglet, Eeyore, Roo, Kanga, and the rest of the crew all make an appearance in the movie. I wanted the characters to be more adorable then they were. They weren’t the soft cuddly soft animals I remembered. Of course I’m not sure what I expected as this was to take place thirty or so years later. Stuff animals we surely wear as these had in thirty years.

All and all I would rate the movie a solid 8 from me. My daughter I am sure would have given it a 10! She at 14 years old really enjoyed the tale. She was exclaiming of it all the way home. I recommend it as a family night out!

My Subaru Journey!

When I meet Marc I was so uneasy driving. In fact I hated it. There had been many times that I just let my license expire in hopes to never have to drive again. Then my love put me in my first Subaru! He got me a forester. It was an instant bond I had with my car! I felt safe and comfortable.

I felt like when I turned the wheel I had total control of my car. Something I hadn’t always felt with previous vehicles. My Subaru gave me a sense of security. I was pleased to drive. I even found myself volunteering to taxi those who needed it without cringing at the thought of being behind the wheel.

As Marc watched my love for my car grow he mentioned how I should set out to be an Ambassador and share my love. I didn’t really know what it was to be a Subaru Ambassador but I was intrigued. So I gave it some research.

Marc didn’t have much information himself other then I would get information on the new 7 passenger that Subaru was soon to come out with and I would get some fun stuff. When I read over the information as to what it meant to be a Subaru Ambassador my excitement grew! This was surely a role meant for me!!!

I would get to share about a brand Subaru that I already had fallen in love with. I would stand by Subaru whole hardheartedly as I did believe in it. I felt safe and secure in my car. Marc and I will give my car to Allen when I get a bigger one. I trust this brand with my child’s life!

I applied and eagerly waited to see if I fit the role to Subaru! Receiving the email I had been accepted was an exciting day! I’ll admit the emails that my gear was on the way was even more exciting! Now it’s official and I am an Ambassador for my favorite brand. My merchandise has been rolling in. I have been shouting from the rooftops of my love! Sharing so much fun stuff with everyone. I can’t wait for Subiefest and to meet new people. I think my Subaru gear might just be the coolest clothing I own too! My adventure has just begun!

My 1st Trip To Red Coach Donuts

Living in two houses means lots of commuting. In the middle of my drive I pass this new elegant little doughnut shop. Red Coach Donuts is the name. It seemed every time I had wanted to try it I had bad timing. They are only open from 6am to 11pm Tuesday through Saturday. I had been seeing them all over Facebook with reviews of delicious donuts.

I just had to try them for myself. I did read many reviews of them being a bit over priced. So I was prepared to spend a bit more that morning for our treat. I liked that I knew in advance I may be spending a bit more. The reviews that I had read put them at about 23$ a dozen. So I had prepared for about 2$ a doughnut.

Upon arrival that Saturday morning I was unable to pull in the parking lot as it was completely packed. I easily accessed parallel parking on the side of the street. Walking up the look is very crisp and elegant. Entering was difficult as the line was to the door.

Standing in line I noticed their pay it forward board. A board where someone was able to buy a doughnut for another. A kind gesture to give. Some gave to a stranger some to a family member. The board was so inspiring. Paying it forward is so important in the community it makes for a better place.

As we waited in line I was enjoying a refreshing glass of lemon ice water provided free of charge on he counter. I had arrived just before ten and I’d say nearly 50% of the donuts were sold out. There were still many to choose from but they were getting quite low. The lady behind me in line asked if there were more in the back and there were not.

I was there to pick up 18 donuts and while ordering I could hear the disappointment behind me. My total was just over 30$ not hitting the $2 mark each I had expected too. They had discounts for buying in larger quantities. Despite what I had heard I didn’t find them to be expensive. I found them to be well priced.

The donuts were out of this wold delicious. Each melting in your mouth as you bite into them. Incredibly fresh and the frosting was perfect as well. It was well worth the line and the price paid. I can’t wait to go back again and try some that were sold out this visit.

I wanted to try a glazed but those were long gone. I would suggest going early in the morning as they do sell out quickly. They have indoor and outdoor seating available. Friendly and clean environment. Don’t forget when you visit pay it forward and leave a doughnut for another.

My Hobby, My Addiction!

Are you wondering what my hobby that is now crossed into my addiction is? Around the time I bought my freedom. Leaving the domestic violence situation I had found myself in. You can read more of that tale here or here or even a bit here. My hobby became coloring.

It was easily a way to calm myself and cope with everything life was throwing my way. I could escape the stress and create some beautiful art! At first I was picking up a marker or two. A coloring book here or there. Excitedly I posted of my first marker tote and filled it with many types of markers.

It’s fun to get new markers. They are all so different in color, and in the way they color. Enjoying choosing all the different possiblities was thrilling for me. I would get lost in craft stores choosing markers.

I will say though I struggle to find as interesting coloring books in the stores. Even When I had my trip to Barnes and Noble ( the gigantic book store) the adult coloring book section was not as impressive as I had hoped. You can discover far better ones on Amazon. In my personal opinion.

My collection may have spilled into an addiction when I realized I had now had three totes to carry my markers in. Which I take back in forth with me to Marc’s each and every weekend. Getting lost in some fantastic artwork is priceless.

The girls share my love for coloring and have started their own little collection. They prefer gel pens where I am a fan of ultra fine line markers. The ones with the tiny tips that take longer to color but work perfectly in the finer detail spots. Nothing great happens quickly anyway right? What is your hobby? Has it crossed over into addiction status as mine?

Radio Controlled Airplanes

I love that Marc has all these fascinating hobbies. One of which being Radio Controlled Airplanes. A few months ago he purchased a new one. I was here when it came in the mail and watched him light up opening it.

Anticipation of watching him give flight to this new plane was eating at me. A few times he would get it out and play with the controls. Putting it together and toying with it and taking it back apart again.

Several times we had scheduled to fly it along with another one or two he has already had. Something seemed to always come up though. Missing the chance each time. Some of those being entirely my fault as I was just not feeling well.

Today was the day. Determined was I to make sure that he was able to have time for his hobby! Selfishly I longed for the smile he gets when doing the things he loves. Planes are so near and dear to his heart.

Outside he spent an hour trying desperately to get the controller to work with the plane. It was not cooperating for some time. I could see he was beginning to get frustrated with it. Just like that he got it!

We walked across the street to the neighbors larger yard. Jake held up the plane and gave it a toss as Marc gunned it! The roar of the engine was far louder then I had expected. Hearing it zoom by us was incredible!

Marc had a wing that quit working and the plane crashed right into the electrical lines. His reaction as he looked back to me and said “Oh fuck” was absolutely priceless. The kids took off to chase the plane which had survived.

The second flight was perfection. A nervous Marc handled it like a professional. Making barrel roles and loopty loops. He is so incredibly intelligent. I am blown away often by the talents he possess.